THEY THINK I'M BEAUTIFUL


FOR ALL MY BIG MISTAKES

Love isn’t about
   fucking each other
at any opportunity.

It also isn’t about
  how many months
or years
  that you’ve been together.

To me,
  love is about 
being able to see light
  inside of the person
who knows nothing
   but darkness.

(Source: mostlyfiction)

Just in case you ever foolishly forget; I’m never not thinking of you.

There are three things I want you to learn how to say.

One.
“I love you”
and don’t just say it as an empty phrase,
say it with feeling,
say it to every person who comes to mind when you think of those three little words.
I know it’s scary,
I know it’s difficult,
but open yourself up
and shout it.
Don’t mumble,
don’t say it under your breath,
when you love someone,
whether platonically or romantically,
it deserves to be shouted from every rooftop.

Two.
“Goodbye”
There will be some people in your life
that come in and just wreck everything,
they mess up your plans,
they hurt you,
and make you feel less than what you are,
so please learn how to say goodbye to them.
But I also want you to learn how to say goodbye
to even the people you want to stay.
not everyone stays,
and saying goodbye is like setting someone free,
and it won’t always come easy,
and it won’t always come without heartbreak,
but not everyone stays,
and it will do you a world of good to learn how to tell them
goodbye.

Three.
“I am worth it.”
there will be waves of sorrow in your life,
and you will feel as if you were the sand that the tide carries away,
you will feel as if it carries away your worth
it will feel like you are the left over rubble of a building
that had been burned down,
and you will feel less,
but please learn to say these words.
say them in the mirror when you have just woken up,
say them when your lover turns their back on you,
say them when you are opening up the refrigerator
sing them,
yell them,
whisper them,
and please, believe them.
You are more than sand that can just be washed away,
and you are more than just a few pieces of broken cement,
please,
you are worth it.

Cliches don’t help when you want to kill yourself 

You are not a mistake. You are too many exquisite details to be a mistake.

if you’re going to self diagnose atleast pick up a psych book and a dsm.
but really don’t self diagnose. mental illnesses are serious. mental illness does not make you cool or cute or eccentric or interesting. why would you want one. you wouldn’t self diagnose cancer or diabetes, right? if you think you have a problem, go to the doctor.

I know you don’t like talk of suicide, thats why I wrote this next line. Someone help me I’m falling for you, off my chair and suspended by a rope in my room.